Jesna's Story

My name is Jesna George. I have been married for 10 years and am blessed with 3 kids here on earth, and 1 in heaven. I conceived my first baby with medical help after struggling for a couple of years with infertility and endometriosis. My 2nd, 3rd, and 4th babies were all conceived miraculously and naturally even with the existing endometriosis conditions. I know this because the doctors said I still have endometriosis which they noticed from my c-section deliveries.

This testimony is about my encounter with Jesus and my healing from my miscarriage during my third pregnancy. When I went in for my 8-week scanning, the doctor said they couldn't see any heartbeat or growth beyond 5 weeks and that we could scan again after a week to confirm. At that time I did not feel anything emotional even though I wasn't expecting that news and was still trying to digest what the doctor said. This was during Covid and I went alone for the scanning. On my drive back home I couldn't control my tears and was feeling terrible about what I had heard. I came home and told the news to my husband and parents. My husband was upset initially but said maybe this baby was never meant to be and got over the loss fairly quickly. My parents too just said it was okay and told me to tell the doctors to give me some medicines to get that "thing" out of my system. I was so hurt by the way my family was considering my baby as a thing to get out of my system. I did not tell anyone anything, but just cried alone thinking about my loss and the lack of understanding from people around me. Over the next few days, the pain and sadness were suppressed and I got back to my life. I got my period about 3 weeks after this news. Physical pain can be overcome by pain meds, but nothing other than Jesus can heal the emotional pain. I feel the emotional pain was much more intense than the physical pain of this miscarriage.

Then the Lord got me in touch with resources from the Project Little Flower ministry and I went through the journey of grieving by accepting, processing, and adjusting to the loss. Talking out my emotions with a person who had a similar loss took away a lot of burden from my heart. I was able to forgive myself and the people who didn't sympathize with me during my loss. I always had a feeling this baby was a girl and I named her Elizabeth. I realized she was a precious gift from heaven but has gone back to the Lord to be an angel in heaven. She is definitely in a better place now and that thought makes me happy.

I am still being healed from that loss and do think about baby Elizabeth every time I go for adoration. I am now able to ask this little angel to intercede for our family and her siblings on earth. I pray that all of you reading this testimony and who have gone through miscarriages encounter Jesus in similar losses and be healed.